August 9, 2006

I’m wondering about the blog. Is it so necessary for me to write down all my fucking thoughts? But there is sth else too…I’ve been wondering all my life where the hell did they go? There are many, many things I want and need to express and for many, many reasons…but now that I’m actually here, on my computer I don’t know where to start from.

Well let me see, I just turned twenty five…hmmm, wondering again…how did I get here. I’m living in the city in a very small apartment, four days a week alone and three with my boyfriend. I can’t say it’s cool, so don’t get excited. Luckily I have two cats and one dog to keep me company….but I don’t need it, I have my PC. But now that I think of it, I really miss my friends. One by one leaving for the summer, I’ve been left here all alone, me and my misery or maybe me in my misery.  I’m out of job running all day finding ways to pay my bills and not just my bills…I have needs you know.  Yes I know, I’m fucked.  And then again I wonder…what’s wrong with me?